Musings and Ramblings by Konnie Enos

 

Did you ever have one of those days were you just can’t form a coherent thought? I seem to be having one of those weeks.

I already knew I didn’t want a topic too broad because it’s difficult to narrow it down. However, to narrow of one means you can’t find enough material to fill the page. That being said, my issue seems to be I can’t come up with a subject, to begin with, and if I do I can’t put it into an intelligent string of words. My brain seems more fog than anything else.

Now, this could be a lack of sleep.

For one reason or another, I’ve had too many nights, far too close together, where I ended up not getting to bed until midnight or later. Very unusual for me because I generally get up early particularly right now when I have to be to work so early in the morning. Believe me, going to bed at midnight or later when you have to be up at four doesn’t work.

 Now I do occasionally have one of those nights where I just can’t seem to get to sleep and for some reason just never feel tired. This is generally precipitated by my picking up a really good book though not always. Sometimes I just get caught up doing something or other (usually on my tech) and I neglect to pay attention to the time.

Then there is always the far too regular around here trips to the ER. My most recent one consumed nearly twelve hours. Now twelve hours isn’t all that concerning but when you consider I didn’t even head over there until about two in the afternoon then it becomes one of those late-night experiences.

This most recent experience was all the longer than it would normally need to be, not because the place was packed (as far as I could see, busy, but not packed) but because they’d had to turn off each and every bit of computer tech in the entire hospital to protect patient information from a hacker. They were doing everything old school. Paper charts, paper orders, no emails. Waiting for paper reports to be delivered from one place to the next.

I think the bulk of my stay was just waiting for things to be processed and delivered. Even discharging me took twice as long as usual because they had to wait for the paper forms to be hand filled in.

Of course, this means I didn’t get home until nearly two in the morning. Believe me, if you’re going to bed at two, you are not getting up at four. Then again, I was still sick enough to not even consider going to work.

On top of all that, my house has been in a bit of an upheaval as the oldest of my sons packed up what few belongings he had and moved out of the house, into his first apartment.

Now since he has very little in the form of worldly possessions his new apartment is not bursting at the seams with stuff. Since he owns no furniture, it’s empty. The big exception, of course, is a twenty-something, single male in this day and age can’t be without his gaming system. Now I’m personally unsure how he’s going to use it with no TV, but I’m equally sure that TV will be at the top of his list. Maybe even before a bed.

For me, a bed would be the first thing I’d consider because there is no way I’m sleeping on the floor. For my son, that’s exactly what he’s doing.

On the other hand, he’s smart enough to realize his first consideration needed to be how he was getting to and from work. Being young, and lacking a savings account, his options weren’t extensive. However, his current lack of a driver’s license limited him even further.

He now owns a bike.

At least now my husband doesn’t have to get up in the middle of the night to get our son from work then hustle home so I’m not late for work. Of course, this is possible because our son’s friend also moved into his own apartment. So we won’t have to transport him to and from work either.

Though it gives me pause to consider these young men moving into apartments by themselves with little or no furniture. Not to mention neither one of them has a car. Probably a good thing the apartments they moved to are near where they work.

All in all, I’m not sure I’m functioning at full capacity right now.

How are you all doing?

Smile. Make the day a brighter day.

Job Hunting by Bonnie Le Hamilton

I have been really busy the last couple of weeks, but I finally found a job. Just a temporary one. At least it’s a start, and I needed the money a couple months ago.

Have you any idea how hard it is to look for employment when so many places are by appointment only or worse still, online only.

And I say worse still because those sights never actually route you to where you can apply. Or at least I don’t think any of them did, but it sure got me on a ton of email and text alerts for jobs I’m not qualified for.

Some of the jobs were physically out of my ability range, and several were out of my skills range. What’s up with that?

And I can’t tell you how many times some website or another notified me of full-time positions when I had clearly indicated that I was looking for part-time work. My doctor said I could only work twenty hours a week.

I also received several notices and “offers” from a company in Idaho Falls. I can’t afford the gas for a job clear up there. What are they thinking? That’s just absurd.

They also keep sending me jobs that require a CDL, I at no time said I a CDL. Man, I can’t have a CDL, since I recently learned no one with Diabetic neuropathy cannot have one. I guess I’m lucky I can still legally drive at all. That may change.

And I have no idea why they keep sending me job offers for CNA’s or nurses when I have no such licensing or skills. Never in a million years.

I did find a couple that sounded promising for me, right up until I noticed the bit about having to lift 30 pounds. Yee gads, people, you’re lucky I can walk, give me a break.

And there are only two jobs I’m sure I applied for.

One where my friend gave me the link direct to the company’s website, no middle-man site, and the one where I applied in person, after my bishop got me the interview.

I know I tried several times to apply for the at-home job through Amazon, but well, I kept clicking past all the job service’s ads and ended up back at the main page before I actually got to the point of filling out any application.

And as I already said, my current job is only temporary, but I’m hoping this COVID nonsense ends before I have to get serious again about job hunting, because I don’t look forward to going through those dang websites again.

I wouldn’t mind if they were straightforward and easy to navigate and that every time you tried to apply for a job you could actually apply without signing up for more texts and emails or dealing with ads.

And I mean really? Ads? Selling things like life and homeowners insurance, to people who don’t have jobs? Are you nuts? You’d have to be.

And somewhere in there, I ended up getting emails about applying for unemployment. I’m not eligible for unemployment. I haven’t worked in well over a decade.

Why do they have to make something so simple so hard?

As far as I’m concerned, sometimes the internet isn’t helpful at all. Sometimes, in person is the best way to go.

After all, how could I know if some of those at-home job offers were scams when I couldn’t check them out? My only info was what the website gave me. It seemed weird.

Oh, and I did get another job offer.

They called me, saying I had applied.

I had? Really? Not only was I pretty sure I never got to the point of actually applying for a job on any of those websites, I never heard of the company. I immediately went online, trying to find out something on them, only to discover it was a pyramid scheme. I’m too smart to get caught up in one of those again. Once bitten, twice shy and all.

I’ve also been working on my typing speed. Hopefully, by the time this job is over, I can find something using my improved typing skills which isn’t minimum wage, which would be a big help.

Aside from all that, I’m working on my sci-fi, the problem is, I keep finding plot holes in the first nine chapters. I haven’t even gotten to the end; I constantly going back to fix new problems.

At least I’m finding them now and not later.

Anyway, how is your writing going? I hope you’re doing better than I am.

Happy writing, everyone!

Of Road Trips and Phone Calls by Konnie Enos

 

This week my daughter had a doctor’s appointment about an 8-hour drive from our home. This requires some planning to make it on time. After covering who was going (i.e.: drivers and patient), securing a place to stay, packing needed items, and procuring road snacks, we loaded up the car and left the house.

We did not, however, immediately, head out of town because the car needed a full tank before starting on such a long trip.

After being on the road for a while, we all needed a bathroom break. When we stopped all three of us got out of the car without our phones.

Yeah, I know, an amazing thing in this day and age but my daughters aren’t glued to their phones and I hadn’t even thought about the fact I was leaving it in the car. After all, I wasn’t going to be out of the car that long.

Not long after we returned to the car the phone of my daughter and the designated driver started ringing. (Other daughter doesn’t drive and I don’t do long distances. My max driving time is two hours and even that is iffy.)

Anyway, she answered her phone and it was her youngest brother.

I’m not at all surprised he called, even after such a short time. After all, I had left him home alone with his dad. My husband, being his normal self, manages to annoy all his children, the youngest daily but since he is on the spectrum, it’s really easy to annoy him. I’m honestly surprised he has called only three or four times since.

I mean between his father finding ways to annoy him daily and his nearly daily need to discuss his favorite shows with someone, which is usually me since I’m the only one in the house who will listen, I expected regular calls.

So his call didn’t surprise me, nor did him calling every phone but his youngest sister’s before he tried her phone. After all, she was driving.

No, what surprised me is what he said about calling every phone in our car.

You see he told his sister he’d been calling us for two hours and was starting to panic since none of us had answered our phones.

Mind you as soon as we knew he’d been calling my other daughter and I checked our phones. We had one missed call from him each, both while we were out of the car to use the bathroom.

But according to him, he’d been trying to get ahold of us for two hours.

My daughter excused our not getting his call was because we’d been driving through mountains for the last couple of hours.

Of course, we were driving through mountains, just not for a whole two hours.

As I mentioned, we’d stopped for a bathroom break, our first such break on our trip. We planned all our stops as close to two hours as we could. That’s right, two hours.

Two hours previous to his calls we were barely leaving the city.

We not only weren’t in the mountains yet, but we’d also left the house no more than half an hour before.

So according to my son, he got frustrated and annoyed with his father, who he is spending three days with, within thirty minutes of us leaving the house.

 Worse, now he had to call because his brother, who was supposed to be gone the whole time we were, had returned home already.

My two boys get along like oil and water. On top of that lately, my older son has been moody, grumpy, and fairly hostile.

Now my son has to deal with his clueless dad and his grouchy brother.

I kind of feel for him, and my sister. The last time he called I let him know I was busy.

His solution?

Call his aunt.

So my sister got the opportunity to listen to my son talking about his current favorite shows and what’s happening in them.

Though honestly, I can’t do anything about how people at home are annoying him when I’m in a different state.

I’m sure when I finally get home I’ll get an earful from my son.

Oh, the joys of motherhood.

Smile. Make the day a brighter day.

Curve Balls by Bonnie Le Hamilton

Life has a way of throwing curveballs.

Right now, those curveballs are kicking my you know what.

I haven’t been able to work for the last eight years because of my heart condition, the problem is, in the twenty-six years before that, I only had one job, and it only lasted six weeks, about all I could handle of it. (It stressed me out.)

Yeah, I wasn’t handling stress well before I was told to avoid it because of my heart.

Now I need a job.

Problem one, my doctor said I can only work part-time.

Problem two, aside from my CHF, I also have flat feet and asthma and am obese. I can’t stand long or walk far without one of those things causing problems.

Problem three is of course my work history, totally nonexistent for more than two decades of my adult life and well, what skills I did have thirty-four years ago, I can no longer use, because, well I am now physically incapable of doing custodial work.

My skill set these days is more suited for an office, but well, I can’t type fast enough to be considered a proficient secretary, and while I know MS Word, I do not know MS Office. I’ve never even managed to figure out Excel.

And then there is the whole being on the spectrum thing. I’m just having trouble getting everything done I need to do, and my to-do list keeps getting longer, while I sit around trying to decide what is most important.

I have honestly always had trouble prioritizing and now that I don’t have anyone around to keep me on track.

I miss Tom!

Of course, if Tom were still alive, I wouldn’t be in this boat, since while he was in my life, I mostly didn’t have to work, and for that one anomaly I found a solution that didn’t require me to work after I quit.

Then again, part of the stress of that job was transportation since my job was in the completely opposite direction of Tom’s job at the time and we only had one car. Let alone that we were living clear out in the country.

But it doesn’t change that I have to avoid stress.

How do you avoid stress in a work situation?

I mean really. Work is stressful. Finding a job is stressful, particularly during this pandemic while so much is closed. I find it especially hard to trust all these online job sites, and I’m getting tired of having to navigate through what is essentially ads without even finding a real job offer.

I want to talk to a real person!

And I still need to improve my typing speed. You would think with all the typing I do that I would be pretty fast, but I’m not. Just ask any of my friends I’ve been in word sprints with. I’m always last, period.

My average is twenty-five words per minute and secretaries need to type at least fifty. Yeah, I have a long way to go.

What really bugs me, is I did take typing in high school, and to pass that class you needed a net word count of sixty per minute. I did pass the class, but somewhere in the years where I didn’t have a typewriter available to me, my speed slowed down considerably, and I haven’t been able to pick it up.

Maybe more word sprints would help. I have no idea.

All I know is, I need to try harder.

I need to do more than just set goals, I need to set daily goals and I need someone I’m accountable to who will keep me on track.

I can’t tell you how many times I’ve set a list of goals for a day, and by the end of the day, I didn’t get any of it done, or very little, and it doesn’t faze me. Now if there is someone expecting me to do something by a certain time and date, by golly I’m going to get it done.

Too bad, I have no one making sure I get my everyday chores like dishes, laundry, sweeping, mopping, changing the litter box done.

The only chore Patches yells at me about is feeding him. So, he isn’t much help on the rest. In fact, he gets in the way when I try to do them.

I’m trying to do laundry; he’s playing in the laundry baskets.

I’m trying to do dishes; he’s climbing all around the sink.

I’m trying to sweep; he’s either attacking the broom or chasing the dirt away from the broom!

At least mopping and vacuuming scare him away, but he also gets in my way when I’m trying to dust!

Happy writing, everyone!

 

Of the Handiness of Directions by Konnie Enos

 

Not long ago I came across someone’s description of their mother-in-law’s inability to remember right and left or the cardinal positions. This description brought back memories.

My husband, and at least one of our children, cannot see a map in their head. Because they can’t, they have difficulty remembering how to get to places they’ve been multiple times.

My husband has crisscrossed the town we were living in to run a few errands. Errands I could have done by making a well-planned loop to every place I needed to go, getting me back home in whatever amount of time I had.

My husband would pass places he needed to go while going to someplace else he needed to go. Once he was driving my brother to run some errands one of which was taking my brother to his bank. I could have done all errands in about an hour. My husband took at least three, including passing said bank FOUR times before he finally stopped. My brother was furious and refused to ride with my husband ever again.

I took a little more persuading. The experience that finally got me to take over the driving, or at least make sure I could map out our route was when our two oldest were in grade school. I told my husband I had errands to run and he decided he did too so we should just go together. Due to our daughters arriving home from school, we had about two hours.

He drove. He also ended up crisscrossing the town. (He didn’t let me dictate where we went next at any time during this.)

Two hours later I had to call my brother to get the girls off the bus since we weren’t home yet. Thankfully his kids rode the same bus and my girls had to walk past his place to get home. We were at least another hour getting home.

The infuriating part is I knew I could have done all the errands in half the time, and he knew when we needed to be home by.

He did things like that so often that I started doing the driving and I rarely let him do errands with me. If we must do them together, I’m mapping our route because I’m not wasting time.

Another thing he’s done before GPS was readily available, is call me from wherever he was saying, “I’m lost.”

“Okay, where are you?”

“I don’t know. I’m lost.”

I had to patiently ask him for landmarks or to take note of a street sign he was passing then try to figure out what direction he was heading without him knowing that fact. Once I’d established where he was, I could give him directions to get home or to wherever he’d been going. Before GPS, this happened regularly. Now he generally turns his GPS on whenever he gets in the car unless one of us is with him to give directions.

Now, as I said, at least one of our children is unable to map things out in their head and remember how to get from point A to point B.

When our youngest daughter got her learner’s permit she needed my directions to get to places she’s been multiple times. Her excuse was she’d never paid attention as a passenger. When she kept needing directions to places she’d driven to several times I figured out she takes after her dad. The big difference is she can still manage to drive around without getting lost or wasting time backtracking. Yes, she has GPS but I don’t think she relies on it as much as her dad does.

Of course, neither of them have any trouble remembering which hand is right or left.

That would be me. I can’t tell you the number of times I was giving my husband directions and I’d tell him to turn left, or right, and when he went to do so I’d tell him it was the wrong direction. I knew which way to go, I just repeatedly mixed up left and right.

Now, in the story I read about the directionally challenged mother-in-law, they reminded her of which was left or right by giving such hints as “you know, the hand you write with”.

Such hints would only confuse me. (I’m ambidextrous.)

The solution in my family was “this-away” (right, as in towards me the passenger) and “that-away” (obviously towards the driver, left). My kids grew up with this and still use it.

Also, I’m perfectly fine with cardinal directions. It’s just that left and right thing that trips me up.

But since members of my family can’t do it, I always wonder who can “see” the map in their head and who can’t.

What about you?

Smile. Make the day a brighter day.